Part of the Family

Lately in this life of mine, I have been getting out more. Its actually very nice :). Majority of the people that I have been around is Joshua's family. They are a very interesting bunch. All I kept thinking is, "so this is what happens when you get married." Joshua's mom and big brother Jimmy are very hyper. Jimmy is one of the funniest guys that I know. When he is around it reminds me of my friendships in high school. He reminds me of John. I miss that.

Joshua got to hang out with his nephew, which he hasn't gotten to see since we got married. They used to be really close. When they seen each other it was like they never were apart. They played video games and while we were at dinner, they just wouldn't shut up! :) Joshua is so cute when they are together. I want them to hang out more. Tyler is such a big part of Joshua's life. I also got to hang out with Joshua's sister, Krystal. She is a good, sweet person. Though, right now she is down, I hope the best for her, I want to get closer to her so she can be closer to her brother.

Joshua is so silly. We get to go on dates again now that we are again getting a stable income. ITS SO NICE! We took the kids out for ice cream and we had some fun ourselves. I love him so much, I can never say that enough. I love him soo much more each and every day.

One thing that I have been struggling with lately has been my hair. It's growing so much, but sometimes, especially when I have to go to work, it gets so depressing. Right now its at the stage where its too short to do anything with, but too long to not, so I end up just putting something over it. Annette kinda gave me a little pick me up. Her hair is longer than mine and she looks so beautiful. She is still battling this evil disease, but I know that she will overcome it. I feel so bad for her but I know that we are fighters! The only thing that we really complain about is our hair. A lot of people say, "Oh, it will grow back."... That doesn't help the situation, or give me comfort. I just want it now. I know it sounds childish, but to have something taken away from you without having a choice in the matter, then suffering soo much to beat a sickness then getting better, and not being completely "normal" again, gets to you. I am staying positive, and some days I can deal with it really well. Just like everyone else, I have my good days and my bad days.